We're moving on Saturday. Today was our last day in our ward. And I've discovered that I hate change. I get physically sick. I'm constantly on the verge of tears. I feel nervous and unsure and shy, and it's awful. I'm afraid of going to my new ward and going to Relief Society for the first time in almost 4 years and having nobody to sit by. I'm afraid of being far away from home with no baby-sitter. I'm afraid of not living at home anymore period. It's that fear you have the night before you go off to college where you're sort of excited but completely terrified at the same time...except this time I'm doing it with two kids. I moved in here when I was 5 months pregnant with Isaac, which means I've never had my kids on my own without my mom or dad to play with Noah when Isaac is upset, or vice versa, or even just when I need a break. But it's not just that fear. I hate when things change at all--I like the status quo. Like when I had to take away Isaac's binks, or transition him to a bed, or potty-train him. Those things are hard for me. Getting used to sleeping in a new place, helping Isaac get used to his new bed (he loves his bed), getting Noah used to having his own room (and remembering to listen for him at night since I won't be able to hear him as well), trying to find my way around a completely new town, trying to make friends...it's just so much bother. The transition time where we don't have a phone or the internet, the time our first mortgage payment comes due....all this stuff is change and I hate it.
This Month's Spotlight
This is Finnegan, probably the last Larson grandchild. He has a great love for dogs and popcorn. His favorite actor is Elmo and his hobbies include fishing, mapmaking, and bathtime. His favorite color is green and his favorite drink is Vanilla Coke.
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This is baby Eliza, Ellen's fourth child (third daughter). Her favorite drink is Enfamil and her favorite food is steak with A1 sauce. She recently celebrated her first birthday and loves to ride trains. Her dream is to one day work at Jamba Juice.
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This is Noah, Emily's second son. He hates to wear pants and loves to jump. He reads books like a fiend and loves to glue stuff. His orange shoes are his trademark and his favorite foods are tomatoes and olives.
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This is Kate, Ellen's third child (second daughter). Kate is funny, sweet, and happy-go-lucky as all get out. She has super great hair and very small feet. Kate's favorite book is "The Old Man and the Sea" and her favorite movie is "Wall-E". Kate can type 42 wpm.
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This is Austin. He loves to swim with fish (and sharks). He loves sports, especially handball and rhythmic dancing, and also loves exclamation marks. Austin is the oldest of 3 kids and loves his cousins, especially Noah.
Caleb is James and Holly's first son. He just started first grade. He loves Emily (the train) and hates Emily (his aunt). Caleb's favorite color is purple and his favorite food is shrimp & scallops. He can run like the wind and loves to climb trees.
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Abby is Ellen's second kid, first daughter. She's a crackshot with a rifle from 2.4 inches away. Abby loves dolls, especially her swimming doll, playing (and laughing) with Isaac, going to preschool, and being outside. Abby loves black licorice and string beans. She's got beautiful shiny hair and very cute feet.
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This is Summer Sue. She is the cutest 14-year-old on the planet. She plays every instrument ever made, including the piano, organ, clarinet, handbells, tuba, and saxophone. She has 7 boyfriends and 9 pets. Summer loves talking on the phone, surfing the web, and reading Twilight (while dreaming about Edward). She has long legs and loves band camp.
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This is Ellen's little boy Luke. Luke is in kindergarten and loves going to school. He is very particular about specifics (like when a party should start, where the decorations should go, etc.). He loves his two sisters and skiing.
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This is me (Emily). I love shooting things, mainly bottles and people. I have two sons and plan to have three more (sons). I love blogging, reading, and snipe hunting. I love Olive Garden's Fettucine Alfredo and playing the tambourine.
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This is Misty. She joined the church when she was 15 in Arizona. She is quite literally the best at everything she does, and if she's not the best at something, that just means she hasn't tried it yet. She loves chocolate and baking and wishes for world peace. She loves to dance, especially hip hop dancing. She has 3 kids and one husband and lots of friends.
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This is Alex. She is in 3rd grade. She loves to draw, dance, and talk. She is a really good baby-sitter and is very good at giving makeovers. Alex's favorite color is orange and her favorite animal is the hammerhead shark.
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This is Dave F in his Lightning McQueen jammies at Aspen Grove. Dave played football in high school and walked on at BYU before his mission to St. Louis. He loves flag football, high school football, college football, and professional football. He likes throwing footballs and catching footballs. He plays on several fantasy football leagues. His favorite football team is the 49ers (he grew up in San Francisco, so he's not jumping on the Steve Young bandwagon). Dave got his masters degree from the U in December but I don't let him cheer for the Utes--GO COUGARS!--and works for the Utah State Health Department. He has 2 sons and 5 brothers.
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Here is CJ on his recent Alaskan Fishing trip (with brother Eric, right). CJ attended medical school in Chicago, one day of residency in Utah, and now works for MD Anderson Cancer Hospital in Texas. He loves fishing, shopping, decorating his house, and dreams of winning the lottery one day so he can buy a really nice camper. CJ has 3 kids and Rachel likes him best.
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This is Hannah. She got very wide in the last few minutes (when you compare this picture to the one her mom posted). She just started first grade and is learning Spanish already! Hannah loves Pixel Chicks, Dixie Chicks, Polly Pockets, and practicing the piano. Hannah loves going to school while it's still dark and letting her backpack reflectors shine.
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This is Sara. She lives in and LOVES the state of Texas. She practices Texas Friendly Driving and especially loves the heat, humidity, and near-constant rain. She's going to Sea World in San Antonio this weekend because she really loves fish and dolphins. Sara loves sunburns and cashews. She recently had a brown recluse spider on her front porch.
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This is Dave S. He married Alice in 1989 when I was 9. He's about 10'2" and towers above everybody
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This is Mom in Egypt I think. Mom was the first daughter and third kid in her family...third of ELEVEN. And that's no joke. My grandma was pregnant for like 15 years or something. Mom went to beauty school and once even owned her own beauty shop! She's a great quilter and sewer and cooker. Unfortunately, she also has arthritis which I believe I have inherited from her. Mom loves to read and buys a book just about every day.
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This is James. James loves reading the Koran. He has two kids and one wife. Gym loves soccer, lawyering, and rich people. James has a pet rabbit that he named Hey Jude. James is good at painting and name-dropping.
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This is Delos. He loves little children. Delos is a lawyer, and a good one at that since he has changed jobs about once a year since law school. He loves cats, walnuts, and pecans and his favorite cookie is chocolate chip. He's an excellent baker and reader, and loves to eat Mom's homemade salsa. He doesn't sleep well, but I don't know why because his bed is sooo comfortable. Delos has 3 kids and is a really good dad.
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Jack is James and Holly's second (of five) boys. I'm not sure why this is the only picture on Delos and Misty's computer, but that's how Jack was chosen for this week's spotlight. Jack loves Oreos, zebras, and being shaken by his older brother Caleb. Jack aspires to play the air drums when he grows up in an '80s tribute air band. Jack's nickname is Jacky or Jack Jack, but some people just call him Steve.
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This is Dad. He served his mission to the southern states with Parley P. Pratt. Dad wanted to be a pilot but his bad eyes forced him into his true calling, engineering. Dad has been married for 44 years and has 6 kids. He has been a bishop twice, a stake president, and currently serves as 1st counselor in the Bishopric.
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Charlie likes to lounge about and eat bon bons. He loves Peter Pan, swordfighting, and Telemundo novellas. His favorite food is peanut M&M's, and he loves doing artwork, especially watercolors.
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Jared likes mountain biking and kayaking. He teaches something at some school. In his spare time he goes golfing. When he's not golfing or working he helps take care of his 3 kids. Jared likes long walks on the beach and horseback riding.
5 comments:
I hear ya' sister! I've had non-stop butterflies since we moved out of our house. I think almost worse than the change is the waiting... it makes the process of the changes drag on and on...
But, you don't need to worry at all! You'll make lots of new friends and just think of me when you feel like you're far away from family... ugh, here come the butterflies again!
I know it's cliche, but you'll adjust. (: I remember when James told me he would be gone for 2 whole weeks, right after Jack was born. I was like, "How the HECK am I going to take care of a newborn and Caleb all by myself?? without any sleep? and for 2 weeks!?" But believe it or not, I think those 2 weeks forced me to be stronger than I even thought possible. Now, whenever James leaves for a few days, I'm like, "No big deal" I've done it many times before and I can do it.
Moving is no fun, any way you look at it. It sucks for everyone, (kids included) and starting from scratch is something everyone goes through after moving. But it needs to be done. (: It'll help you grow. I still don't really have someone I would call "my friend" (outside church aquaintences) here in Cumberland. IT's really sad, but at least you should have some girls/women your own age in your new ward. Be grateful for that. And Isaac should have kids his age as well. (Caleb doesn't have anyone his own age in his primary class)
Good luck! I know you can do it!
now i feel like a wus. holly moved from oregon to maryland and lynette's moving to CHILE. that's right, chile. her change is much bigger than mine. i guess i can handle it.
nah, it doesn't matter where you go, change is change, I think I cried HARDER when I moved 10 miles across town, than when I went to BYU
I used to HATE change and would get really anxious and shy. Not that I'm completely over it now, but it has gotten easier as I've been forced to move around (across the country)...I'll be thinking about you and hoping the move and finding new friends goes smoothly for you. Good luck!
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